Strangers now, but we’ve always been
You never knew me
Not at all, maybe slight, not completely
I’m not selfless, I know that well, could you see the guilt inside me?
Your tired eyes begged for death
(Can’t imagine the fear)
Could barely move or turn your head
(Never thought I’d end up here)
Tomorrow will be a better day, tomorrow you’ll feel better
Fucked up now like we’ve always been
I was an anxious little boy
Spinning drunk, in your bedroom, beside you
I was reckless, I still am now, could you see yourself inside me?
I see the light approaching now
(Can’t imagine the fear)
Intangible and blaring sounds
(Never thought I’d end up here)
And all I’ve done in my life is wonder when it ends
Could never shake the feeling away
Tomorrow will be a better day, tomorrow you’ll feel better, I swear
I’ll try my best to shine when you can’t make light of this situation
I’ll pick up all the pieces when your heart is broken down
(Try my best to shine down for you)
I went to Williams, but I didn’t bring your ashes like you asked
and I still bite my fingers, and I still have that awkward nervous laugh
and you live on in your family’s pain, that empty chair on the holidays,
in your convictions and your shame, in broken picture frames
Tomorrow will be a better day, tomorrow you’ll feel better
(Steady my hand and smear my blood on the canvas,
Swallow the pain until I can’t fucking stand it,
fall through the cracks with everything I’ve been handed,
bury emotions to prevent future damage)